Ready or Not!

Well, I found out a few weeks ago that I am pregnant. And believe me, at first, I was devastated. (Well as devastated as a woman can be about having a baby) Let me explain that. I have been on birth control for almost 6 years now. Since I gave birth to my daughter. My husband and I recently moved to Louisiana and we are definitely not ready to have another child right now. He is trying to find a good job and we are looking for a house. So, obviously, we were caught by surprise when I found out I am pregnant. I was thinking why now. I always say I want another baby, I just thought it would be better timing. But, being a woman, and a mother, I quickly came to terms with my pregnancy. When a woman is pregnant, it is almost an instant bond with the miracle that is happening inside of you. For a man, not so much. A lot of men do not actually bond until they see the baby. With that in mind, my husband is still trying to adjust to the fact of having another baby. I know now though, that we don't always get to pick the time and that if it is God's time, then I have to go with it. I am so excited now to be having another baby. And thank God for the blessing. I went to my first Dr. appt. on Thursday, March 26, 2009. Without an ultrasound she said she thought I was about 8 weeks. So, we have a long journey ahead. But I guess it is much needed time to get ourselves situated and ready. One thing about this pregnancy is that it seems much different than my first time around. I am tired all the time. I seem to have absolutely no energy by mid afternoon. But when thinking about it, it makes me wonder, could this be because I have a husband, two kids, bills, a job, etc. Not just the pregnancy, but the pregnancy plus real life? I guess we will see. Until next time, keep me in your prayers!